Amazingly - March 29, 2005

Amazingly although I didn't watch what I ate, I didn't balloon up. so I think I read my final book on "eating" I'm gonna be the diet guru before you know it after all this reading. anyways, I read Dr. Phil's book and I think along with what I learned from Oprah's trainer Bob Greene I'm on the right track. I'm not promising myself to 6 days of working out or cutting out all carbs. I'm going to work out more than I was before (which isn't hard) and I'm going to eat less bad stuff and a more balanced diet. How does that sound? So I cleaned out my house of bad food and stocked it with fresh organic produce and I woke up yesterday morning to work out. I'm believing in myself this time around. I've been going through some tough stuff and all I want to do is get healthy. Not skinny, no hot, not any of those things..just healthy and happy. That's not to much to ask for is it :)

March 22, 2005

I haven't died, or blown up from consuming too much food, although I wish I had. I've been eating wisely, but not well....if that makes sense. Anyways, I still not motivated...and I don't know why. I'll be back soon though..I can feel it. My bday is coming up in the next couple of months and I'll be turning 27 so that may be a turning point. Lose my weight by the time I'm 29 so i can really enjoy my final year in my 20's. That sounds good huh? OK...I promise..I will return.

March 3, 2005 - March 7, 2005

So I lost myself along with all willpower for the last 4 days. I kept up some light excersise but pretty much ate whatever was put in front of me..and it wasn't good. Anyways, I still managed to lose 4 pounds in the last 2 weeks but it of course makes me wonder how much I could have lost if I had been good. Oh well..something is better than nothing. Anyways, I'm gonna start back on it tomorrow...so I'm hopping back up and brushing myself off :)

March 2, 2005

I've fallin and can't get up. OK..so this morning I woke up and had my usual fruit shake. Got to work and ate a grilled chicken breast with bacon, bbq sauce, and cheese. It was supposed to be a sandwich with a side of fries but I got no bun and veggies instead. I had a small salad as an afternoon snack, and a few pieces of kabob when I got home. I had agreed with my friend to play bbal before doing my real excersise. Well, bball went over a little, so by the time I got home I didn't want to cook or do more excersise, so we went to dinner..and worst of all we had italian. We shared a small pizza (my side was cheese), and some lasagna (I only had 1/4 of it). I then split my carrot cake dessert with his white chocolate raspberry gelato. Oh...we had a bottle of wine and some diet coke along with it as well. So again, I fell off. Bad bad bad....I promise I'm going to be good today and through this weekend. I'm stronger than this!

March 1, 2005

So...today was a bad day. I'm not going to lie. It started off good but ended very bad. I started with my fruit shake as usual and a bottle of water. I got the munchies at work so had some chicken filling. For lunch I had a large salad with some chicken salad and turkey on it which held me till the afternoon when I had a small apple with some PB. I got home and had a very small helping of chicken fajitas. Today was my day off from excersise (which I realize is probably why I was bad). I cooked some turkey kabobs which include ground turkey and onions. The cooking process took longer than I thought so I finally sat down at 9 to eat a kabob on a salad with some Masto-Khiar (persian yogurt). My friend was over and was hungry and wanted to to go In-N-Out so I agreed to go. Physically...I wasn't hungry but emotionally I obviously was cause I ended up ordering a #1 (double double with fries and a large coke) AND another cheeseburger (protein style). I ended the night with a couple of sips of my friends shake. I think what upsets me the most is that if I'm going to splurge I should do it earlier in the day AND not on a day where I don't excersise. The fact is, it wasn't even worth it. yeah it was good going down, but I felt so disgusting full and gross all night that I could hardly sleep and the food didn't settle in my stomach well. I promised myself to brush myself off and get back at it.