Feb. 28, 2005

Still a little emotional today but doing better. I had a fruit shake this morning. I forgot that I was told you could put spinach in your shake for added nutrient and I bought some at the store the other day, but forgot it this morning so I'm gonna try it tomorrow. For lunch I had a huge salad..almost too much...but as usualy with salads I was hungry in the afternoon. I went for a chai latte and had a 1/2 cup of the chicken lettuce wrap filling. I got home and did my functional and strength training excersises. It was getting late so I've decided to eat dinner first and then go work out. I had chickenwith onions and green peppers (fajita style). I'm still waiting to let it settle before going to work out as I know if I work out too soon, I'll get a stomach cramp or something. Anyways, I think I'm going to take tomorrow off as I've worked out 7 days in a row now, but maybe I'll try and do a little something just so I don't feel too lazy. I can honestly say I'm really getting into this work out thing..although walking by myself could start to get boring, so I'm going to have to try and recruit some point :). Alright..I'm gonna finish watching American Idol and then head out for some cardio.

Feb. 27, 2005

Hmmm...I had a really bad night last night. I got in a very big and upsetting fight so woke up having to deal with those emotions. Although it was supposed to be my day off, I thought the best thing to clear my mind was exercise, so I ate half of a pria bar and did some functional and aerobic excersises. I finished just in time as a big rain storm came in for the rest of the afternoon. When I got finished with excersise, I made a fruit smoothie and showered up. I then ate some turkey chili with no beans..it was good...but a lot of meat. Not sure I'll be doing that too often as it just seemed so heavy. I had planned on heading out and running errands but I just couldn't get myself up and out. I'm not sure if it was the rain or my emotions. Later I decided to heat up some lettuce wrap filling that I found in the frozen section of Safeway. I thought it would be much better than it was. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't horrible, just left something to be desired. During the Oscars I decided to cook up two turkey meatballs in marinara sauce along with some brussels sprouts to end the evening. I think I ate too much MEAT today so tomorrow I'm going to try and do salads, just to cleanse the system and stuff. I was tempted all weekend long to run out and get a chai latte but I didn't. I decided to save it for the work week. As this was the first weekend on the diet I really realized some things about myself. I eat when I'm bored....so I really have to watch out for that. I also don't think I drink as much water. I still drink the necessary 6 - 8 glasses, but I definetley don't drink the same amount as I do during the week. I've been tempted to hop on the scales but realized its not worth it. I've noticed changes in my body already so that's what I'm concerned about. I think I might weigh myself next week (every 2 weeks) to see how things are going, other than that I don't want to pay too too much attention to "the number".

Feb. 26, 2005

Well, I woke up at a reasonable hour this morning...you know...something before 10 :) I cooked up two turkey sausage links and two eggs with some cheese. I decided I needed to let the food settle before working out so sat and watched a movie. I then had a 1/3 cup of cottage cheese and headed out for a good hour walk (oh..i did my functional exercises before leaving). The walk was good but tiring. When I got home I relaxed a bit, drank a lot of water and took a shower. In the shower I wasn't feeling good...and little nauseous. I'm not sure what was doing it...the eggs...the diet..the excersise, but I ended up lying down to try and get rid of it and ended up sleeping for 2 hours. i woke up feeling MUCH better and hungry. So I had a southwestern BBQ chicken salad from safeway. They're really good and very filling. I then decided to try out a fruit shake recipe I had read about. I used raspberries, blackberries, blueberries, strawberries, and pineapple right from the frozen section, with some ice, yogurt, and oj. The exact recipe is 2/3 cup of fruit, 1/3 cup of yogurt, and 1/2 cup of OJ. Delish!! It was like I had gone to jamba juice. I think adding a 1/2 banana would make it the best...and a little thicker but I was happy....and it was so easy to make and clean up. I finished my evening off with some cauliflower and cheese and a chicken frank....and of course a sugarfree jello with whip cream. I realized when I have nothing to do I eat a lot more...so...I got to do something about that but all in all I don't think I was too bad today, and aside from the nausea thing..I'm feeling good.

Feb. 25, 2005

Alright...lets see. I had two sausage links for breakfast which were rather burnt...but they did the job. I then had about 5 almonds around 11 as I could tell I was getting REALLY hungry and didn't want to overdo it for lunch. Lunch I had a salad with chicken salad and some slices of turkey. I then had a 1/2 cup of cottage cheese with some pinappple chunks on top for a snack around 4. I got home and did my functional and aerobic excersises. I finished the night having 4 turkey meatballs again in marinara sauce with some sprinkled cheese and brussel sprouts. I probably finished about 4 liters of water again..which is what I'm shooting for. All in all it was just another day.

Feb. 24, 2005

Woke up and ate two of the turkey sausage links I had cooked up. They're as good cold as they are hot luckily. I drank a liter of water on my way to work, and another before lunch (which starts at 11:30 for me). I had 10 almonds around 10:30 to hold me over to lunch. At lunch I had a salad with some chicken breast and some sliced turkey and more water. Around 3 I was asked to go to Starbucks with a co-worker who order a Chai Latte. I asked what that was and she said black tea and milk....so I tried it (but with soy milk) and OH MY GOD...my new best friend. Not only was it warm and sweet, but it was filling which was perfect as yesterday was "birthday" day for our department which entails them bringing a huge cake for the department and basically plopping it outside my cube. Thanks to the tea I didn't have the appetite for cake and although in the past I still would have had a piece full or not, I passed this time. I did eat an apple after everyone had had their cake as I knew I had a long work out ahead of me once I got home. I probably drank another liter of water in the afternoon before heading home. Once home I started my workout. I had to do functional, strength, and aerobic so I was working out for a good 2 hours in all. Once I was done I did find myself snacking on 3 more turkey sausages...which was bad as I was about to make myself dinner. I showered up thought and cooked some turkey meatballs in some marinara sauce along with some petite brussel sprouts and sprinkled with some italian cheese. I couldn't believe how good it was. Now that I think about it, I didn't even have a dessert last night (probably due to the sweet overload from my tea earlier). Anyways, I found myself eating at times when I didn't NEED to so I want to try and recognize that more. Tomorrow is my Dad's birthday so it's most likely going to be an emotional day but I'm going to have to deal with emotions along the way right? My dad's favorite was chocolate (actualy food in general which is where I think I get my love for food) so I thought about having a piece for him, but then I realized there was so much more that he enjoy like music...so I'm going to head out and buy myself a new CD that I think he would have liked as well. Maybe the new Ray Charles. All for tonight. See you tomorrow.

Feb. 23, 2005

Alright..so it's really the 24th but I thought I better enter something for yesterday just so I know what I'm up to. Yesterday I had some egg beaters, a sprinkle of cheese, and half a chicken hotdog for breakfast. I then ate a pretty big salad for lunch which included a scoop of chicken salad and a couple of slices of chicken breast. I ate a small apple for a snack around 3. I got a headache again around 4 so when I got home, I had a thin slice of cheese, and some cucumber slices dipped in buffalo ranch sauce. I did my functional excersises and finished up with 45 mins of walking. I got home and cooked up some turkey taco meat which I put on top of lettuce, some onions, and some cheese and topped it off with some sour cream. For dessert (and my sweet tooth) I had a sugar free jello...orange...it was yummy. I wanted to be done eating by 8:30 every night but due to some stuff I didn't end till about 9...but I haven't got to bed before 1 this whole week which is still 4 hours after I last ate. I drank at least 3 liters of water (maybe 4) throughout the day so I'm good there.

So far things haven't been too tough. I think I might overload on salads, so I'm trying to figure out what to do about that. I guess more veggies with grilled meat huh? I think if things seem to be working slowly, I'll have to look into my cheese intake (eventhough i LOVE cheese) and stuff like salad dressing and sour cream. I figure though with the cut from what I was eating, plus the excersise, I should be ok.

Emotionally I'm on a roller coaster as my boyfriend has been having to deal with family issues and so I've tried to be stable for him, but at the same time still get upset about the usual things. I'm not really happy at work, although I wouldn't say I'm completely unhappy. I like the people, but I'm not sure I like what I'm doing. I have definetley found myself thinking about eating food during difficult times, but I have to remind myself that it's not worth the long-term results. Oh...I cooked up some turkey sausages this morning for breakfast and boy were they good. I'm not impressed with turkey burgers, but turkey meat with some seasoning on a salad, and turkey sausages get my approval. I also bought some turkey meatballs so I'll have to see how those are.

Alright, that's all from here. I'll try and post again tonight otherwise expect an update tomorrow morning.

Feb. 22, 2005

Well, I woke up late today so grabbed a small apple on the way to work. At work I had a salad with grilled chicken breast. I then felt the urge to snack around my usual time of 3:30 so I had 10 almonds. I left work with a horrible headache. Not sure if its due to the change in diet, lack of caffeine or what....but I got home around 5:30 and did some weight training including some dumbell reps, some situps, and some leg excersises. Luckily my headache went away and my support team made it over to my house for a good long walk...about 45 mins. We got home around 7:30 and I told myself that I would stop eating 3 hours before I go to bed (which is usally 11:30) so I had an hour to get some food. I cooked up two turkey burger patties with a little cheese sprinkled on top and mixed up a bbq ranch salad. I finished my night off with some mixed berries. I think I'm going to try and move my fruits to earlier in the day but I have a problem with needing something sweet after dinner....maybe some sugar free jello. anyone have any suggestions..shoot me an email and let me know. I'm only allowing myself drink tea and water and I don't really drink that much tea...so I finished 4 - 1 liter bottles of water (I have a new relationship with the bathroom). All in all, I know it's just the first day of many, but I feel supported and ready for whats to come. I'm really ready for this...I just hope temptation doesn't beat me.

Starting Point

Well, it's the first day of the rest of my life. I don't know why or how or when I decided this all, but I'm really ready for a change. Ready to see myself in a way I've never seen myself before....skinny or at least within the "normal" weight range. Today I weighed in at 316.4. Definetley not my heaviest, but it's up there and obviously not healthy for any height, especially my 5'8" body. I took some "starting" pictures so I have a before and after and boy were those a shock to my eyes. I've got a long way to go, but I know I've got the heart and determination to do it, so here I go!